I Don't Know

My answer to every essential question in life at the moment seems to be "I don't know". I'm not sure what the future holds, and I don't have enough of a grip on the present to make an even remotely accurate forecast. It's terrifying, stressful, nerve-racking, and just about any other adjective that represents a situation you don't have control of. I immediately begin feeling uncomfortable when people ask me even the simplest question's about my future. Mainly because I feel like I just don't have the right answer. It seems like saying "I don't know" sounds just as stupid as any half-assed answer I can come up with at the time. It's a lose lose situation and I'm yet to determine the lesser of two evils. It seems like I don't know anything. I'm 20 years old and still don't know what I want to be when I "grow up". I don't know where I'm gonna be in 5 years, I don't know where I'll be in a year. I don't know if I want to stick with my major. I don't know what I'm doing this summer. I don't know what I'm doing for my birthday. I don't even really know what this post is about or where I'm going with it. I. Just. Don't. Know. As maddening as this may seem, there's sort of a silver lining. Maybe being at this place where I realize that I don't know anything is a step in the right direction. Socrates, the father of Western Philosophy and one of the most celebrated thinkers of all time, once said "The only true wisdom is in knowing you know nothing". He coined the Socratic paradox "I know that I don't know" and said that he was wiser and better off because of that. If knowing that he didn't know made him a genius, why can't I make something out of this knowledge of my knowledge of nothing? As frustrating as it can be, it may not be completely terrible. Perhaps sometimes, ignorance really is bliss. Not knowing my future doesn't mean that I can't control it, or that it will be a disaster. It means just that, that I  don't know what it will be yet. But I intend to figure it out. Somehow. Some way. Thanks for listening (reading).
"Let him that would move the world first move himself" - Socrates
                                                                           

                                                                     

-Swaggy T