This post is sort of like
that one random episode in Season 6 of your favorite show that's full of
flashbacks revisiting moments from previous seasons. Yes, I am referring
specifically to the episode of The Office where Toby is giving an HR report to
the potential buyer. Anyway, it just dawned on me that my blog is a year old
now. Time flies. I went through many ups and downs over that time, some of
which may be shown in the writing or lack thereof. Despite a 6 month period in
which writer's block caused me to collect stress and the blog to collect dust,
I feel that I made immeasurable progress; Not even so much as a writer, but
more so as a person. March 11, 2015 at 10:45 p.m I sat down as a misguided kid
with a lot to say but no platform who finally decided to go to blogspot.com and
start what I'd been putting off for years. I had no clue what the premise of
the blog would be, let alone what the first post would even be about. I
literally wrote my initial blog post about how I was starting a blog. A few days
later and almost a year ago to date, I wrote an entry titled "A Left At
The Second Light" which was essentially a post about how lost I was and
how I had no clue what I was doing. But my understanding of the fact that I was
lost is what lead to me being able to find myself. Small quotes such as
"We're all searching for direction, but I think sometimes it's important
to get lost" and "No matter how strong the winds may be, there's
never been a storm that didn't pass" really helped me to see things a bit
more clearly. At that time not many people were reading but I was helping
myself by finally finding a way to silently verbalize the thoughts I never got
a chance to express. As I wrote more, I began to realize that more people were
paying attention and that it was really helping some people just as much as I
was helping myself. I received compliments and thank you's just for sharing my
thoughts and it was an amazing feeling. But the best feeling of all was knowing
that I was able to help even one single person that was feeling the way I was
on March 11, 2015. In my initial post I stated "Now I highly doubt this
blog is going to change my life in a major way". Fast forward a year from
that post and wow I was so wrong. I really like where this blog has taken me,
even though I'm yet to go anywhere. I'd like to thank myself for finally
starting the blog and I'd like to thank all of you for reading and giving
feedback because that's what inspired me to continue writing after I'd stopped.
I was lost, horribly. Through this I was able to find myself, and go back to
where I once was and help other people who were there as well. This is not only
my canvas, it's my Underground Railroad. If you would've told me a year ago
that the blog I was starting was going to help numerous people have a better
understanding of themselves, help my parents understand me more, lead me to
finding myself and inspire multiple people to start blogs of their own I simply
wouldn't have believed you. So I can honestly say I'm really proud of myself. I
started this with no premise and no promises and a year later I know exactly
what I want to use this for. Whenever someone asks me what my blog is about I
describe it as "Me talking to myself while attempting to speak for
others." With that being said, I've talked to myself for long enough in
this one. Here's how it can apply to you. You really never know what impact
what you're doing right now can have on your life going forward. Your next move
may be your best move, make it carefully. But most importantly, make it. Had I
turned on my Xbox and played 2k(wow it was 15 at that time) at 10:45 p.m on
March 11, 2015 there's a very high chance I'd still be lost to this day. A
foolish man once said "How ironic I thought I couldn't do anything right,
until I started writing. And you're never in the fight, until you've started
fighting." For you it may not be writing. Everything isn't for everyone
but there's something for everybody. Everyone has something. Whatever it is
that you do, do it. Find what makes you happy and dive into it. Make your
decisions carefully but don't fear the idea of making a decision. Take a
chance, especially if the risk is low. You never know where it might take you.
A year in and I feel like this is only the beginning. So if you've been reading
or even if this is the first post you've ever seen, thank you so much. Please
understand that even if we don't know each other personally, I'm more than
happy to help you if you need me. That's what this is, that's what I'm here
for. A foolish man also once said "So I'm speaking for you, let me be your
voice. Decided to chase a dream cause I was glad to have the choice. I was
tired of keeping quiet, time to bring the noise. Cause it's he who Rolls the
dice, that pulls up in a Royce." #TakeAChance2016
Thank you all so much for
reading.
One Love,
- Swaggy T
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