My First Show (Intermission's Intermission)

Okay let me get started on this verse. Writing this hours prior I won't have time to rehearse. Lately I've been trying to shine like the pocket on my shirt. God watching over me so the timing is perf-ection. In my notepad so I'm worse texting. I'm so fly, I'm on airplane mode. Speaking clearly so you can hear these flows. Getting higher as my spirit floats. My days flow into my nights, word to the Equinox. I wrote this part while listening to Speakerboxxx. Rise and lean a little bit closer see what these roses smell like. Rhymes be wishing and hoping so they know I well write. I mean I write well, get on the mic tell, the things my mind yells. I know the hype sells, but lies I can not tell cause that would be libel and I would be liable. So I never try the bull. Never switched my team, never tried the bulls, chasing green but like the 09 Celtics, I despise the bull. Cause you can't bring light with bull. I'm the Truth it's undeniable, because with the pen I Pierce minds in flows. 5 star bars about the Big 4, like KG I got big boards. Vision boards about having the heat in the future, I'm putting Jesus in flows. Shuttlesworth shooting his shot, I beat my demons with flows. I copped that headband and put my team in these flows. Eyes closed, my mind, no. 9 flows, Rondo. 7 years ago, like where did I even find those? Fast forward to the present, Western Conference Finals. There's a game tonight, I spit insane tonight and now they're seeing it's fire cause the flame is bright and now they're understanding that I'll change my life, cause I was made to write. And how my loved ones and I will remain this tight but even they didn't know what I would say tonight because I didn't have a clue. Because I couldn't really choose, I mean my rhymes are all like this so I couldn't really lose. But I write it so clearly that they didn't get confused. It's coming from the heart, and the bleeding is profuse, Because I wrote this knowing I'd be spitting it to you. So I had to make it connect, like what's the wifi? 4:04 PM shifting through my mind about how I can get me a high rise among the skylines. Now I'm about to put on a show, this is Primetime. About how I'll be funding my travels through these fly rhymes. This wasn't even my story, just the first things that came to mind. I once thought my mind wasn't great, but I changed my mind. It may take you a while to catch that, take your time. I can A tell story backwards like Nas, so we can play rewind. I once thought my mind wasn't great, but then I changed my mind. I never force it, I just take my time. Drop the tape, get signed, and I've reached the happiness that I once couldn't find. So anything is possible. Impossible is nothing. If you dismiss your dreams cause they're impossible, you're bluffing. Cause anything is possible, just need to know you love it. Anything is possible, just need to know what love is. And that's why I always put my team in my rhymes. They were sleeping on me, I was putting dreams in my rhymes. I don't blame them cause they simply didn't see it that time. Even I didn't know that I would see it this bright. Even I didn't know those were dreams I would find. Trust me I done felt some pain man them demons can fight, but once I found God I beat them demons for life. Tell the homies I've got some G's for us, we'll reach em with Christ. This is way sooner than I ever thought I'd speak on a mic. And the bars are so loud that they're keeping em quiet. Grand slams dug out from way deep in my mind. I wanted to tell my story but I keep getting lines. I want to kick these dope bars, but I keep getting lines. This deserves a break,

and if I drop another bar like that the earth can quake cause now I've got your world rocking and you've never heard the tape. This is just something I'm writing on it's own. Almost a freestyle, I just write it off the dome. I was searching for the flow and now I'm finally off the chrome. Cause it's time to go for gold, all summer 16. I'll be chasing goals, all summer 16. And when me and the track meet, even if it's a trap beat. I'll be spitting mad heat but still bury the facts deep. They opposites but I don't let it attract me. I stay real, I don't let em distract me. Word to these Air Max Plusses they could never subtract me. And I show it cause I remember when I wasn't this happy. I thanked God every day, and then he started talking back. Now I talk to him even more than my Mom and Dad. And I talk to them in front of you, yes you. Rhymes sick, bless you. If You're Reading This It's Not Too Late to see you're special. Was gonna wear the shirt that said you couldn't guard me but I couldn't find it so I made a movie starring me. First let me paint the picture I already laid the steps for, and throw in the tech pants I had to rep the check for. I ain't got it, so what would I try to flex for? Was gonna rock the Popeyes visor but Brandon said no hats. No tape but I said no need. Thanks to God I'm not in the same '03. That Jetta's gone and I'm in the Benz now. It's an 07, I ain't boutta flex now. Saved money for it so I ain't got it to spend now. Brake light is out, I had to ride with my friend now. But all of my friends proud. A few in the crowd, a bunch not. But I'll keep em with me when I'm eating, lunch box. Still ain't tell the story, when will the fun stop. Feeling sorta self conscious cause it's too long. But they're looking at you Shaun, so keep writing your new song. 4:41 pm talking to me in the future. March was mad but the pen has been amazing in May. I'm painting pictures and I'm putting on amazing displays. And I know it might sound cocky when I say it that way. Pay attention while I send you this message, you're supposed to be confident in the gifts that you're blessed with. God saved me and used me to help him save you. Life is a test, the answer is love, and to remain true. If that sounds familiar I'd like to thank you, for reading the blog. And taking the time it took to really see into Shaun. And for listening even when you weren't agreeing with Shaun. You were there for me even when you couldn't be there with Shaun  And for that, love for you is planted deep into Shaun. I'm talking to everyone including me in this song. And it's coming out so smoothly like I'm singing this song. And I break it all down, I don't often shake. I told you how I walked to God, yes I offered faith. Oh wait I haven't told you yet. I lost myself, I've got a for gift for rapping in an awkward way. Shoutout to shorty who told me that I should pause for breaks.

First let me paint the picture I already laid the steps for, and throw in the tech pants I had to rep the check for. I ain't got it, so what would I try to flex for? Was gonna rock the Popeyes visor but Brandon said no hats. No tape but I said no need. Okay I've got it back. I was disappointed I couldn't rock my Popeyes hat. So I no longer knew what I would perform. Cause I had to paint a new picture, even though I still could have described it to em. But I thought it'd be more organic if I just write what I'm doing and now they see the picture cause I brought one right here to em. It's 5:06 in the Lex and I'm bowling mad strikes with pen. If I stop now, I don't know if I can write again. Flow getting sicker but I've just run out of vitamins. The pen kills my pain, I've never popped a Vicodin. No track behind me but I'm feeling like I'm running out of time again.  What I'm wearing's laid out on the bed, but what time is it? 5:10 and I know my shirt is wrinkled but I won't iron it. Dropping mad gems, you might find em in the dirt. Cause you really gotta dig, I mean your mind may really hurt, from hanging on this whole time as I've been popping off these words. Lately I'm just tryna shine like the pocket on my shirt. I married the pen some time ago but welcome to the wedding, in these tech pants that I try not to break a sweat in. Severe love for my team so there will never be a severance, strong willed so I'm tryna be a legend. I'm seeing it so clearly now I'm almost mad that I wasn't. It's all starting to add up, word to these air max Plusses. I want my girl to meet my friends, she wants me to meet her cousins and I explained to her that they aren't my blood but we're brothers and sisters cause love is a picture. Love is real, love is descriptive. And your heart can not be whole if you turn love into a victim. And your heart is not a home if you notice love and evict it. I'm walking with love cause I know love is on a mission. I'm bringing you the message, I'm not a Jehovah's Witness but I'm standing in your face and telling you Shaun's a Christian. Because God is love, now swap the words and play it back. Ain't getting paper yet I'm somehow up here sending facts. And anyone who is paying attention can see that. And for my sake if you're paying attention, please clap. Okay wait, please stop. I'm glad I've got your attention. Put some respeck on the name, I was done, I ain't finished. Mad bars, I'm serving drinks. Bars hitting so hard, they deserve a break.

I hit my shoulder to show you the pad. You can learn about the time I wanted to die the same way that my dad did. He read it on the blog, I'd never told him before. I kept it to myself but now I'm opening Shaun. I tell them about my happiness, I told them about the pain. Mom watch your son shine, now that I've told em about the rain. You didn't see much but I told you about my day. We really only spoke when I pulled up to you at the gate. I told you I went to church, grandma was proud, she said enjoy the service. Hold on Mom, (I'm giving y'all food for thought, hope you enjoy the service. Bars everywhere like Verizon, then I close my eyelids, and Sprint for the Horizon. Search for a picture until I find one. Dreaming of the days that I'll be catching flights son, paint pictures of my dreams show em, how I'm tryna take flight to keep my team mobile.

Search for a picture until I find one. Norkis paints the same type of pictures, but she designs them. Now I am a writer, I've been off that block like Bynum. Reuse a bar sometimes just to help em find them. Wrote a 10 page blog post and then I got a text from Lemar. And I knew that conversation was just destined by God, I got excited cause this means that I was getting to start. You can shine, don't bother checking the forecast. Ozzy copped the equipment, now we're starting the broadcast. My team's about to shine, don't bother checking the forecast, even my girl writing now, we're starting to all spazz. Now what do you call that? I'm thinking all stars. Know we all can shine, cause I know that we're all stars. And that's how it all starts. Life comes at you fast, shooting shots like I'm throwing darts. I'd like to thank Brandon and Sheldon for this platform. They put on quite a show tonight, we should clap for em. Oh I was painting a picture, let me bring it back to em.

Mom I told you I went to church, Grandma was proud, she said enjoy the service. And I knew that I would, because I saw the purpose. Everything happens for a reason, he does it all on purpose. I'm putting on a show so I'm removing the curtains. My grandma proud of her grandson. My mother thinking, dam son, where'd you find this? And to her that line'll be random. I was  scared to shoot my shot but now I'm getting And-Ones. I'm writing like 4 projects when I once had only planned one. Was searching for a miracle, he showed me that I am one. So now I show the picture more clearly than any Samsung. So I'm confident that it's getting displayed.

He spoke to me and said time to step up so I listened to him as I stepped to the stage. This is the story of how I talked to God in his crib and I went and got saved.

This is the part I ran out of time to write. I'm about to blow up, flow dynamite. I'm ahead so there's no hinds in sight. I escaped that dark period, I simply had to find the light. It's funny, finding myself facilitated finding Christ. Standing in God's crib with Pastor David on the mic, a moment that would change my life. Thank God cause he saved my life. I speak to him and that's why I can write, 1:00 service the timing was right. Ironic I'm losing myself in the moment with a focus on having the time of my life. Thought about it before, but I'd always been afraid. Hours before I performed, God called me to the stage. I looked at Jalen and said "Yo I think I'm about to do this." I was already walking with God but I had never walked to him. But I couldn't ignore him as he was talking. And he made sure he sent me there with someone to walk with. The whole church watching as I step to God. And you see his work here because he's blessed the blog. He bestowed a gift upon me, then let me rap it. This is the intermission's intermission and the next one's backwards. Now I shoot my shot with confidence like I've got extra backboards. Either way it bounces, things'll go my way. And I realize that every time I talk to God I pray. And I promise I'm not trying to force religion on you, I've just got this message for you. God has a vision for you. Even if you don't attend church, he has a mission for you. Any time that you need to heal, he's the prescription for you. Anything you feel like you need, he can get it for you. That's because your life is planned out he's got it scripted for you. Started the rhyme around 4:00, finished it at about 6. Hit the stage around 8. Wasn't ready but the crowd faced, served food for thought and the crowd ate. I didn't get to perform this part. My face was sweating bullets as I poured my heart. Crazy thing is I've never been one for stage fright, but I had my first performance and got saved on the same night.